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Eenie, Meenie, Miney…

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Decisions, decisions…

Every day we get to make choices.  In fact, we make an average of 35,000 decisions a day.  From whether to get out of bed or not to the choice of what to have for lunch, choices are part of our daily lives.

Choices play a tremendous role in the lives of religious people.  We have a binary relationship with choice, assigning it either a good or bad based on the Ten Commandments.  Many of us then lead our lives held up against the divine checklist and measuring our goodness, self-worth and social standing by our compliance or non-compliance.

I believe in Heavenly Father’s plan for us, choice has always been one of the biggest parts of His plan.  And choice has been with us since our very beginnings.  The story of Adam and Eve totally revolves around choice.  Eat the fruit or not eat the fruit: that is the question.

We are all familiar with the ancient prophet-general Joshua’s statement on choice.  The Israelites were clearing Canaan to inhabit that land.  The people in Canaan were pagan, worshiping a host of deities.  Joshua puts a choice before Israel in Joshua 24:15:

And if it seem evil unto you to serve the Lord, choose you this day whom ye will serve; whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the flood, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land ye dwell: but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.”

The choice put before the Israelites was not a new one.  After Moses led Israel out of Egypt, the Lord gave a similar choice to Israel.  In Exodus 20:3, the Lord states:

“Thou shalt have no other gods before me.”

Coming out of Egypt with its polytheistic culture of Ra and Osiris and the host of other deities, Israel was very familiar with the practice of worshiping multiple gods and in having the Creation revolve around stories of these gods.  Polytheism was the cultural and religious norm, not the worship of a single deity.  All of the ancient civilizations were polytheistic.  The world of the Babylonians, Assyrians, Persians, and Egyptians all revolved around polytheism.  And Israel lived among, traded, bartered and fought with all of these peoples.

Monotheism was a bit odd for the time and a sharp delineation between the Israelites and all of their geographical neighbors.  And the theme of God pleading, commanding and reminding Israel to remember Him flows through the scriptural record of Israel’s choices.  In the Old Testament, Israel’s greatest failing is their choice to forget God and worship something or someone else besides God.

If we move forward to the New Testament era, the principle of choice permeates the teachings of the Savior, as well.  What is really interesting here is that the context of choice changes.  While the Old Testament focuses on choosing between idols of stone and wood and the living God, the teachings of Jesus take choice to a deeper level of understanding and application.

For example, in Luke 10 we read of Jesus asking the lawyer what the law says about gaining eternal life.  Instead of listing out the commandments in Exodus 10, the lawyer encapsulates the intent behind the commandments.  He says, “Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy strength, and with all thy mind; and thy neighbour as thyself. (Luke 10:27)

And Jesus’ response corroborates the lawyer’s answer.  “Thou hast answered right: this do, and thou shalt live.” (Luke 10:28)  There is no surprise in the Savior’s response, as if the lawyer’s response was a new theology or anything.  The lawyer’s response was one already accepted in that time.  And with the lawyer’s response comes a new component in what should motivate our choices: love.

Instead of making choices based on fear that heaven will send bolts of lightning down on us if we err, the teaching is that we are not to be distracted away from God through our love for Him.  We see this in Matthew 6:24: “No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon.”

This verse is really a reiteration of Exodus 20, where Israel is told, “You shall have no other gods before me.”  The cultural context has changed from polytheism to individual desire.  But the desires, whether worshiping an idol or taking our focus away from God and putting them on the mammon of materiality, are identical.  And it is here we learn about an aspect of sin and one way in which God views sin.

N.T, Wright, an Anglican biblical scholar at the University of Edinburgh, states it this way. “That’s how sin happens.  It isn’t just that there is a bunch of rules and we ponder, ‘Shall I keep them or not?’  In actuality, [we’ve] been secretly in love with one or more…idols.  [We’ve] been worshiping the creature rather than the creator.” (Lenten Devotional, 2017)

Sin is indeed the failure to do what God has asked us to do.  Yet before the act, before the misstep, before the deed, there is the choice and what desire drives that choice.  And that is what God is after.  He is not after a group of people stuck in a lock-stepped march back to heaven.  He wants our hearts to bend towards Him as he reaches for us.  He does not want us to get distracted with our idols of this age.  Whether it be politics, career, relationships or school, He wants our actions to be driven by choices that are driven by love and desire for Him.

And how do we develop this love for Him and not for the things of our world?  You’ll have to come back next time to read my thoughts on that.

Be kind, make good memories, and come back soon.

 

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To Wait or Not To Wait…

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One of the things I lack is vast amounts of patience.  I’m ready to jump on board with any technology that allows me to access data faster or research information.  I want things now.  I don’t want to wait too long for my book to come from Amazon, or wait in line at McDonald’s for my Big Mac.  It’s supposed to be fast food, right?

Obviously, I need some improvement.  By learning patience, I will save myself from getting all bound up in feelings of frustration, annoyance and outright anger. And I might master my soul…

In Luke, the Savior said:

19 In your patience possess ye your souls. (Luke 21:19)

In New Testament Greek, the word “possess” also has connotations of control over or mastery, as well as acquire or win.  If you drop one of those related terms in place of “possess” you gain a clearer vision of the verse and the Savior’s message here.

As a parent, I get to deal with patience quite a bit.  As a parent, patience becomes the antidote I preach to my children when they want something in the moment.  Like me, sometimes they just want something now.  And children become very adept at vocalizing their immediate want very early in life.  In response, I’ve become very adept at telling them, “Be patient.”  I’m not really teaching them patience when I say that.  I’m teaching them the universal parental signal to be quiet and quit bugging me.

However…..

Real patience contains ingredients of humility and faith.  As children of God, how many times have we sent our wants heavenward in prayer?  Have we prayed over children, spouses, family, jobs, or direction in life?  Of course we have.  Have our prayers been immediately answered how we desire?  Of course not.  When the heavens seem silent and answers are far away, it is very hard to hear the words, “Be patient.”  It takes large dollops of faith and humility to place ourselves in God’s care and say, “Thy will be done,” rather than rage when our mortal will is not accommodated.  And yet this is one of mortality’s lessons.

It helps me realize the importance of patience when I think of the perfect patience Heavenly Father has with His children.  We stumble and fall like so many toddlers learning to walk in this life.  And still, He is always patient, always there, encouraging us to keep trying, keep reaching for His light and keep walking that narrow path back to Him.

Our amount of patience can also be a means of measurement of our amount of charity.  Just before the Savior presents the parable of the Good Samaritan, Jesus responds to a lawyer.  The lawyer asks the conditions to gain eternal life.  The Savior responds with a question:  What does the scriptures say?  The lawyer astutely answers from the law of Moses – Love God and love your neighbor.

“25 And, behold, a certain lawyer stood up, and tempted him, saying, Master, what shall I do to inherit eternal life?

26 He said unto him, What is written in the law? how readest thou?

27 And he answering said, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy strength, and with all thy mind; and thy neighbour as thyself.

28 And he said unto him, Thou hast answered right: this do, and thou shalt live.” (Luke 10:25-28)

I think the practice of patience with those in our lives helps us obey that commandment in a much richer and Christ-like manner.  If I am patient, I am not busy passing judgement.  If I am patient, I am less concerned about my own personal agenda and more about the needs of others.  If I am patient, I will try and see life with the view of others rather than my own myopic vision.

Joseph Smith wrote: “Ye are not able to abide the presence of God now, neither the ministering of angels; wherefore, continue in patience until ye are perfected.” (D&C 67:13)

The practicing of patience is a divine attribute of our Heavenly Father.  We should practice patience, as well.  We are trying to become like God, one small, stumbling step at a time.  Let’s be patient with ourselves, our fellow travelers in life, and faithfully patient that all is in God’s hands and He is guiding us home.

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   Be kind, make good memories, and come back soon.



What If I Don’t Want To?

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“If I can stop one heart from breaking,                                                                                                     I shall not live in vain;                                                                                                                                     If I can ease one life the aching,                                                                                                                Or cool one pain,                                                                                                                                            Or help one fainting robin                                                                                                                     Unto his nest again,                                                                                                                                         I shall not live in vain.”                                                                                                                                   (Emily Dickinson, VI)

Emily Dickinson is one of America’s greats.  Her poetry is sensitive, thought-provoking and emotive.  I love this poem of hers, as it expresses so many of the desires of seekers of truth.  Being concerned with lifting the burdens of the weary, easing the souls of the downtrodden and caring for the casualties of this world is a job not for the half-hearted.  It is, however, a job for the meek.

Meekness is not for the timid. You have to be tough to be meek.  Yet, in society, the word portrays weakness, softness, and lacking in worldly worth.  A meek person is seen as afraid of whatever shadow might appear and cause one to tremble, shudder and hide.

The word, “humility,” gets tossed around with frequency in conjunction with meekness.  I believe humility brings us closer to the true nature of meekness, but not all the way.  The two traits are siblings on the same strait and narrow course.  Yet, why even talk about the meekness?

Well, there is a lot riding on this word.  Remember the Savior’s words in the Sermon on the Mount?  “Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth,” (Matthew 5:5.)  That is quite a weighty promise, especially if the promised inheritance is a divinely cleansed, celestially blessed earth.  I’m not sure I want the planet in its current state.  The future, though, is promised to be bright! (Revelations 21:1)

So, let’s examine meekness and why practicing meekness is not for the weak-kneed.  At it’s locus, the quality of meekness is enshrined in the hearts of the teachable.

Meekness is at the center of a disciple’s life.  Without the willingness to use our faith to look heavenward as our trials, cares and concerns seem to be crashing all around our heads, we tend to “rage, rage against the dying of the light,” (Dylan Thomas, “Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night.”)  To possess faith requires meekness;  we humbly accept that God will wipe away our tears and bear us up to a brighter day.  It is recognition that we cannot return to heaven solely by our own merits, but through the sacrifice of God’s Son, that shows the power of meekness.  To know that God is God and we are His children allows us to put ourselves aside and put our trust in Him.

It seems meekness is one of those things that, like most things, we work at and learn over a lifetime.  And we need to.  We like to hang on to things and not turn them over to God.  We think we know better, gifting ourselves with more wisdom than spiritual insight would allow.  For example, we love our material possessions.  It’s not a new problem.  It is a persistent one, though.  Remember the young man’s encounter with the Savior in the New Testament?  The young man approached and asked what we all ask:

“…what good thing shall I do, that I may have eternal life? (Matt. 19:16)

The Savior responded initially with counsel to live the ten commandments.  And then:

“20 The young man saith unto him, All these things have I kept from my youth up: what lack I yet?

21 Jesus said unto him, If thou wilt be perfect, go and sell that thou hast, and give to the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come and follow me.

22 But when the young man heard that saying, he went away sorrowful: for he had great possessions.” (Matt. 19:20-22)

I am not suggesting we all sell everything we have and head to a hermitage.  Rather, here then is the question to ask ourselves.  What are we too prideful or even afraid to give up to continue our journey towards Jesus?  For the young man, he wasn’t willing to divulge himself of possessions, of which he had many.

What do we hang on to?  Do we hang on to pride, or selfishness, or of taking offense?  All of these attributes keep the doors of meekness and humility closed.

We all ask what do we need in order to gain eternal life.  Are we willing to accept God’s answer and act upon it?

God has given each of us agency, the freedom to choose light or darkness.  And God would have it no other way.  There is no divine cattle-prod forcing us onto the path.  We have to want it enough to choose it and choose Him.  Meekness is advanced discipleship.  Meekness is thoughtfulness.  Meekness is listening for God’s strong, yet quiet whispers to us each day.  Meekness is trying to maintain a perspective on eternity rather than the short-sighted view of mortality.

Once, a lawyer in the law came to Jesus and asked Him the same question that the young man had posited.  The lawyer said:

25 ¶And, behold, a certain lawyer stood up, and tempted him, saying, Master, what shall I do to inherit eternal life?

26 He said unto him, What is written in the law? how readest thou?

27 And he answering said, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy strength, and with all thy mind; and thy neighbour as thyself.

28 And he said unto him, Thou hast answered right: this do, and thou shalt live.” (Luke 10:25-28)

The answer supplied by the lawyer, of loving God and neighbor, is both motivational and directional.  Yes, we are to love God and others and demonstrate that love.  The two commandments also focus us away from ourselves and towards God and His children.  That is meekness.

Meekness concentrates us on daily discovering what God wants to teach us, rather than our myopic, limited view that we already know it all.

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Be kind, make good memories and come back soon.

 



Keep the Change

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“…had been so terrible that none of them ever spoke of it now, but the bitter steel had sheared into their hearts, leaving scars that would not heal,” (Thomas Wolfe, Look Homeward, Angel.)

I am a big fan of Thomas Wolfe’s novels.  His kneading and molding of the English language is a joy to read.  He paints rural America in the late 19th to early 20th centuries with a full palette of adjectival colors and images.  Some readers find Wolfe’s characters too morose or depressing due to their impoverished conditions.  I find them true to their time and condition, desperately trying to claw their way out of poverty or totally crushed by their conditions.

Much of his fiction portrays characters shackled in poverty, but possessing dazzling personalities of erudition and emotion.  In his novel, “Look Homeward, Angel,” we are introduced to the family clan father, Oliver Gant, who lives his life in the small, rural town of Altamont.  He pursues his trade of being the town’s sculptor of headstones, but without ambition.  His wife, Eliza, possesses a more ambitious acumen.  According to Eliza, Oliver’s business is not successful because people don’t die quick enough.  It’s not a volume business.  In Eliza’s pursuit of wealth, possession of property  and more property is the path to a comfortable, genteel and respectable life.

Oliver is a tortured soul.  He regularly rails and revolts against what he perceives to be the inequities of life.  Getting blindingly drunk, he raves at the cosmos, his wife, and a seemingly deaf, uncommunicative God.  Frustrated in his world of Fate’s chains that bar him from greatness, Gant devolves into the town drunk.  His whiskey-fueled temper is held in fear by his wife and pity by the townsfolk, who support him home when he passes into unconsciousness in the street.

Oliver’s life, in Oliver’s view, is a long series of offenses against him, like a poor hand of cards that is continuously, eternally dealt him.  It’s a game he cannot deal himself out of.  He has been scarred by his life and unable to forgive Fate.  For the reader, Fate in this situation is really consequence.  Oliver’s manner of living has produced many of his woes.  Blaming Fate is much easier, though, and requires much less soul-searching.  To quote a staff journalist in a recent issue of the National Review, “Character is Fate.”

However, character is not something formed in concrete, unchangeable and solid.  We often think of character as being just that:  it’s who I am.  The truth, though, is quite the opposite.  Our traits are malleable, changeable and improvable.  And God, with great purpose and mercy, made it that way.  The change process is called repentance and is one of the most profound gifts we have from Jesus Christ through His atonement.

For those whose hearts search for, reach for, and are “pointing our souls to him,” (Jacob 4:5), repentance is what God has given us to achieve “a change of heart,” (Helaman 15:7).

We focus so much on what we are not, we many times fail to understand what we are becoming.  As followers of Christ, the path is strait and narrow.  It is also long.  In our frenetic daily efforts, we concentrate on immediate results, where God is taking the long view of eternity with us.  He not only sees us as we are, but also as we are becoming.  That is why I consistently ask myself, “Which direction am I facing today?”  Am I making a thoughtful effort to turn towards God today?  If not, why not?

Our process of becoming like Christ is not merely the cessation of sin, but the conversion of the heart.  It is not merely the eradication of the world’s influences, but the replacement of those influences with the bits of heaven we encounter along the path that assist our souls in becoming purer, our intentions more holy and our actions more charitable.

Repentance, motivated by faith in Christ, is the process given us to not merely return to heaven, but it is the process to change us so we are comfortable when we get there.

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Repentance is not easy.  It’s not supposed to be.  Changing our character is a process that can take us to the depths, yet with the promise of raising us to the heights of our soul’s potential.  Don’t be discouraged with daily stumbles.  Like a toddler learning to walk, our daily stumbles and continued efforts will eventually enable us to walk clearly in God’s path.

Garrison Keillor, the American radio story-teller and folklorist, closes his broadcasts with a simple benediction.  When I hear it, I can hear God giving us the same counsel.  He says:  “Be well.  Do good work.  Stay in touch.”  Let’s do that.

 

 



Faith is What?

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Let’s talk about something that can’t be seen, but can be shown in our actions.  And I’m not talking about rocketship underpants.  Recently I’ve been pondering the meaning of faith as a point of personal motivation and core of religious belief.  Faith is one of those terms that is bandied about with immense frequency, but rarely with clear application.  I believe this is due to the many ways we put the term, “faith” to use.

Faith can be a church, (the noun) with which we affiliate, or an inner belief, (the verb), which can drive many of our actions. Both usages interplay with each other.  For example, my inner beliefs can motivate my actions within my religious community.  My beliefs drive actions, which in turn allows my actions to manifest my beliefs.  How’s that for circumlocution!

Biblically, we are taught that “faith is the substance (assurance) of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen,” (Hebrews 1:11.)

While I agree with that general definition, faith becomes much clearer for me when focused on Jesus Christ.  To merely say I have faith is too ephemeral, empty and even vacuous. To tie my faith to the person of Jesus Christ is a proposition with much more substance and meaning.

In fact, it is everything.  Faith in Jesus Christ is what heals the wounds of our hearts.  Faith in Jesus Christ leads us to turn from error and turn towards Him.  Faith in Jesus Christ allows divine grace to save us.

Faith in Jesus Christ also requires some effort.  The apostle Paul recorded in Romans 10:13-14:                                                                                                                                                                 “13 For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.                                     14 How then shall they call on him in whom they have not believed? and how shall they believe in him of whom they have not heard…?”

Joseph Smith, in the Lectures on Faith, wrote:

“2 Let us here observe, that three things are necessary, in order that any rational and intelligent being may exercise faith in God unto life and salvation.

3 First, The idea that he actually exists.

4 Secondly, A correct idea of his character, perfections and attributes.

5 Thirdly, An actual knowledge that the course of life which he is pursuing, is according to his will.—For without an acquaintance with these three important facts, the faith of every rational being must be imperfect and unproductive; but with this understanding, it can become perfect and fruitful, abounding in righteousness unto the praise and glory of God the Father, and the Lord Jesus Christ,” (Lectures on Faith, #3.)

The language here is of relationship.  It is learning who Jesus Christ is and what He does and how His actions impact each of us.  If we don’t know anything of Jesus, how can we possibly place our faith in His grace and goodness?

And faith requires us to make an effort.  In Matthew 11:28-30, the Savior taught:

“28 ¶Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”

Notice the very first words?  We are required to come to Him. We must make the effort to learn of Jesus and re-direction ourselves towards Him.  In verse 29, the invitation to action continues.  “Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me…”

In the book, “The Crucible of Doubt,” Teryl and Fiona Givens discuss how many desire the path of faith to be walked for them.  The Givens write: “Christ invites us to assume the yoke, but we would rather ride in the cart,” The Crucible of Doubt, pg 62.)  Faith is not acquired or strengthened through a Laz-e-boy lounger approach.

It is often said that faith is a word of action.  Faith in the Lord, Jesus Christ, has the same requirement.  And the wonderful thing with developing faith in the Savior is that it doesn’t matter if we feel a strong confidence with God, possess an abstract association with deity, or merely think we might want to see what this faith thing is all about.  The Book of Mormon prophet, Alma, encourages all to make the effort.  He said:

“27 But behold, if ye will awake and arouse your faculties, even to an experiment upon my words, and exercise a particle of faith, yea, even if ye can no more than desire to believe, let this desire work in you, even until ye believe in a manner that ye can give place for a portion of my words,” (Alma 32:27.)

Lastly, where should this effort be directed?  A couple of thoughts include:

  1. Read about Jesus, take in his teachings and thoughts.  In other words, read the scriptures. Read the Four Gospels, read 3 Nephi in the Book of Mormon, read Doctrine & Covenants, sections 19, 76, 88, or 138.  The apostle John wrote:

“39 ¶Search the scriptures; for in them ye think ye have eternal life: and they are they which testify of me,” (John 5:39.)

2. Devote some quality time to prayer and thought.  Matthew wrote:

“22 And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive,” (Matthew 21:22.)

Try it!  Our efforts are done with the goal of turning our hearts towards God, of learning about His son, and then making the effort to try and live our lives as Jesus did.

Sound fun?  It is.

 



Pay Attention
February 9, 2017, 12:14 am
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“It is safe to tell the pure in heart that they shall see God, for only the pure in heart want to,” (C.S. Lewis, “Made For Heaven,” pg 15.)

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In my last post I wrote about intentions, of shining versus crowing as we live our mortal lives.  I continue to find scriptural evidence that what our Heavenly Father really desires is our hearts, intents and desires to align with His.  In this life He gives us every opportunity, over and over again, to stretch our souls towards Him.

This heavenly parental endeavor is never peremptory, never coerced, and never forced upon us.  In a very individual way, God presents choices, decisions, and most of all, people in our paths.

He does this to help us turn, like a sunflower to the sun, to Him.

If you’ll notice, I’m not emphasizing actions here.  I’m not degrading righteous acts, either, but prioritizing them.  Look at Matthew 7:12-13:

“21 Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father in heaven.

22 On that day many will say to me, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and cast out demons in your name, and do many deeds of power in your name?’

23 Then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; go away from me, you evildoers.'”

This is the NRSV version, which is a little easier to read.

Jesus teaches his disciples that before the good works, before the righteous deeds, before we start tallying our noble acts, knowing what God would have us do seems to be a higher priority.

And there is the question.  How do we discover what God would have us do?  We do have the Ten Commandments as a foundation.  Yet, focusing on the foundation, while important, doesn’t seem to be enough.  The Savior seems to be teaching there is more we can do beyond blind, rote obedience.  We also have the scriptures, and spiritual leaders.

The best means we have is prayer.  Real prayer.  The kind of prayer where we achingly ask and attune our spirits to listen.  I like the image Robert Frost presents.

A TIME TO TALK – Robert Frost

When a friend calls to me from the road                                                                                              And slows his horse to a meaning walk,                                                                                                    I don’t stand still and look around                                                                                                              On all the hills I haven’t hoed,                                                                                                                      And shout from where I am, ‘What is it?’                                                                                                  No, not as there is a time to talk.                                                                                                                 I thrust my hoe in the mellow ground,                                                                                                        Blade-end up and five-feet tall,                                                                                                                   And plod:  I go up to the stone wall                                                                                                              For a friendly visit.

Most of the time we shout out our prayers in a great rush of thanking and asking, petitioning and pleading, without ever taking the time for the most vital portion of prayerful communion: listening.  I bet there are so many things our Heavenly Father would like to tell us.  With our hurried, “Amens,” I fear we slam the door and break off the conversation.  And we miss learning what God’s will is for us.  For each of us individually.

Remember the counsel the Savior gave after his parables?  Sprinkled throughout Matthew, Mark and Luke come the words, “And he said unto them, He that hath ears to hear, let him hear,” (Mark 4:9).  Parables were used by the Savior, so those hearers who spiritually listened, would learn the will of Heavenly Father.

In the movie, Sister Act 2, there is a song called, “Pay Attention.”  It begins:

“If you wanna be somebody,                                                                                                                             If you wanna go somewhere,                                                                                                                        You better wake up and pay attention.”

Can I get an Amen with that?  Let’s listen more and pay attention.

 

 

 



Light Or Dark or Medium Well

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When I was in junior high school, I loved doing theater.  Specifically, musical theater.  I believe this predilection for the stage and grease paint comes from my dear mother.  She loves Broadway musicals and would watch, “South Pacific,” “Oklahoma,” or “Annie Get Your Gun,” at every opportunity.  It was a great way for a kid to learn and love this type of music and performance.

So, it wasn’t much a stretch for me to get involved in my junior high productions of “You’re a Good Man, Charlie Brown,” or “Oklahoma.”  They were a blast!  I got to shine on stage, sing, act and clumsily dance.

 

Being in the spotlight reminded me of some of the words in the beautiful Sermon on the Mount.  The Savior taught:

“14 Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid.

15 Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house.

16 Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven,” (Matthew 5:14-16.)

Part of the reason I enjoyed theater so much was the attention I received.  I was in junior high, trying to make sense of life, and the positive accolades from parents, family and friends were wonderful affirmation.  Who doesn’t like an occasional high-five every now and again?  At 14, I know I did.

Receiving compliments does have an addictive quality, though.  Any performer will say one of the joys of performing is receiving the acknowledgements of an appreciative audience.  However, one of the things I learned over time is the difference between receiving compliments and seeking compliments.  It’s one thing to be praised for a job well done.  The intent changes, however, if I start asking, “So, did I do good?”

That mentality demonstrates a search for praise, a desire for attention and a longing to fulfill an emotional need through the words of others.  It’s a flimsy foundation on which to build one’s self-estimation.

And when we do that, we are facing the wrong direction.

What I mean is when our focus, our efforts, our attention are directed towards obtaining praise or recognition,  our hearts are not in the right place.  We are only gazing in a mirror rather than directing our attention outwards, searching for those in need.

The Savior put this perspective into a divine perspective.  In the Sermon on the Mount, in Matthew 6:1-6, he counseled:

“1 Take heed that ye do not your alms before men, to be seen of them: otherwise ye have no reward of your Father which is in heaven.

Therefore when thou doest thine alms, do not sound a trumpet before thee, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and in the streets, that they may have glory of men. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward.

But when thou doest alms, let not thy left hand know what thy right hand doeth:

That thine alms may be in secret: and thy Father which seeth in secret himself shall reward thee openly.

¶And when thou prayest, thou shalt not be as the hypocrites are: for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and in the corners of the streets, that they may be seen of men. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward.

But thou, when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to thy Father which is in secret; and thy Father which seeth in secret shall reward thee openly.”

On the surface, the examples cited above, both from the same sermon, seem to give contradictory counsel.  The first admonishes us to shine, let our good examples show for all the world to see.

The second seems to advise the exact and total opposite.  The Savior counsels to not display our giving to the poor, (the alms,) or in living our religion in public.

Although seemingly contradictory,  they are clear when we examine the verses through the lens of intent.  The direction given by the Savior helps us identify and define our intent.  We should not be looking around waiting for someone to notice our nice act.  We shouldn’t be pummeling the first person we can find over the head with our good deed and asking, “Did I do good?”

The motivation should all be from love for Heavenly Father and for His children.  Our actions then arise and flow from that love and desire to be like our heavenly parent.  Reward is not even part of the equation.  Trying to emulate the Son of God in our daily lives brings so much more joy.

Helping those in need, comforting those who mourn, lifting those in despair, loving and assisting the poor are all acts of a follower of the Savior.  Those properly motivated actions convey in humble ways how we follow the Savior’s admonition to, “Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me,” (Matthew 11:29.)

It is how we shine and glow on our mortal trek on knowing and becoming like the Savior.